who am I?

I am Anonymous.

I am 22 years old.

I am a student, a lover, a brother, a son, a friend,

And half of the time, I don’t know what people want of me.

I am confident of being self-conscious

But self-conscious of being confident.

I love to sing (as long as it’s in the shower)

I love to dance (as long as I’m in my room)

I love to draw (as long as no one will see it)

I love to write (as long as no one will read it)

I love to act (as long as no one’s watching)

I love to cry (as long as no one’s near)

I love to talk (as long as no one’s listening)

I love to scream (as long as no one can hear)

I wish I could figure out my place in

My family, my group of friends, my love.

I hope to find my place in this world.

I don’t understand why we cry for joy

Or live to die.

I adore life

Because there’s so much to see and do.

I hate life

Because it’s bound to end.

I take the bus just to watch people.

I’d rather be alone.

My life's been a downward spiral for the past five years. 

It's like a nightmare that never ends. 

things not working out,

and possession getting lost

I have an obsession with eyes

Simply because they can tell you the most about someone.

I call them

“The Window” to someone’s soul. 

 

i want my girlfriend to be with me 24*7, to take care of me,

as i will do.

I filled my room with cushions and pillows

My favorite spot is still on the couch in the corner of my room.

I’m deadly afraid of clowns

I love the circus.

My life goal is to bring my Chucks around the world.

I laugh at how

Nobody is a pronoun

Anonymous can replace a name

Indescribable is an adjective

Undone is an adverb

My favourite character is Superman

But I don’t have a hero

At this point, I don’t think anyone could save me. 

I have one reason to keep myself alive. 

Kick cancer's ass. 

Some think that I’m strong 

Confident

…Myself.

I care too much what others think

I wish I could be how I want to be

When I want to be. 

I hate when people compliment me 

Saying that I’m fat

No matter what, I’ll still think I am not.

People say that I’m “emotional”

Just because of the way i talk to them

They think I’m selfish 

Because I won’t let them in. 

They don’t know me.

They know nothing. 

They don't that I'm constantly living the worst day ever

Or that I would die for my best friend in the blink of an eye.

They don’t know what’s going through my mind. 

I am UN-UNDERSTANDABLE.

They don’t think the rumors torture me

Because I block them out. 

They don’t think the whispers hurt

Because I pretend I hear nothing. 

They don’t think the stares burn

Because I act like I don’t see them. 

Whenever I get mad,

I write letters to people expressing how I feel.

I never send them

Because I can’t bring myself to hurt their feelings.

I lie awake at night

Wasting time

Thinking about how much of our life is wasted

Just by wasting time.

I don’t get how we can spend time sleeping

Right after saying that life is too short.

I’d rather stay up with friends.

My best friend is not here

Life would be so much easier without her

No love,

No fights,

No pressure.

One of my worst fears is darkness

It’s one of the only things that keeps me calm.

Music calms me too.

and so does my love.

Without music, I probably would’ve gone crazy by now.

I couldn’t sing if my life depended on it

I’m in choir.

The most important thing in my life right now?

My love.

We play, laugh, cry, fight, talk.

We live life to the fullest.

I know her better than myself.

She knows me better than I do.

The thing I want most of right now are answers

The thing I have most of right now are doubts.

My name is Anonymous, and this is 2010.

I don't know who I am, 

do you?